I don’t know about you but sometimes I have a hard time getting motivated to do things. On a day I have to work my motivation is earning money to pay the bills. On weekends or days off it is a lot harder to get up and get going. Like today I promised myself I would clean the house and take the trash out. So far that hasn’t happened. Since the bug guy is coming to spray inside the house Wednesday I’m sure I will be working hard tomorrow after work to get the house clean enough to not be embarrassed. What gets you motivated on days you don’t want to get out of bed?
A couple of weekends ago I has a head cold, but I was still able to go see a movie I really wanted to see. I ran my errands. I got up and got ready with out any problems. Those are the times I feel like a real person. The weekends like this one where I don’t want to leave the house or my bed make me feel like I’m letting someone down. I still haven’t figured out who that person is. Maybe it is me I don’t know. I am trying to not put myself down for it. I work hard during the week. I have social anxiety and work with people a lot. I’m not on anxiety medication. I do it with the tools I learned in therapy. It is hard and exhausting. I have every right to rest and take a break. I shouldn’t beat myself up over it. Everyone has hard days. I’m sure you will have a lot of them. Don’t beat yourself up over it. Don’t let people make you feel bad about it. Celebrate the days you get up and get going. Be proud of that.
I am proud of myself everyday I get up and live my life. There was a time I couldn’t even leave my house. When I was 16 I shut out the world. My friends and family. I don’t do that anymore. That’s not who I am anymore. I’m still scared, but I know I am strong. I have a reminder of that tattooed on my arm. I’m stronger then my illness and so are you. Be proud of even your smallest accomplishments. I had a therapist tell me once it’s not about the giant leaps, it’s about the baby steps.
What motivates you to get up and live your life?